Last week I posted with my meals that I bought 72% cocoa chocolate so that I could enjoy it a square at a time like D does. I wondered if I was “mature” enough to have it in the house without eating too much of it.
I found that I am not (yet)!
I had one one square the first night, and then none the second night – so far so good right?
As the week went on, my resolve weakened when I worked several nights in a row very late.
Also, I told my self I was “too busy” to exercise and began work at my computer between 5:30 and 6 each morning.
NOT having offices to go to yet has skewed me a bit by me thinking I have to be working right when I sit down at my home computer since my home computer is temporarily now also my office computer.
So, back to the chocolate.
On Sunday I had one square since I resisted on Saturday.
Then, I started thinking about it every evening just because it was there. I feel like a fool when my brain does this – I REALLY should be mature enough to NOT let any food control my thoughts.
But, Rome wasn’t built in a day, and apparently, a lifestyle change is not built in a matter of a few months.
On Monday I had one square, then working late Tuesday night, I ended up having 3 squares.
Strangely, Wednesday I had the first migraine I had had since this plan began – was it the chocolate?
So, Wednesday and Thursday I had no chocolate, but Friday night, after a long week, I “treated” myself to one, and then, because I could not stop thinking about it, I ate the remaining 3 squares over the course of the night vegging out with mindless TV.
I told myself it’s best to just get rid of the temptation – but, if that’s the case, why not just throw it away?
There’s where the lack of maturity comes in ….
In a month or so, I’ll try it again.
As a side note – I did NOT have a headache Saturday morning despite eating 4 squares Friday night!